sem break log: day 2

i love today.

i woke up at 6:30 for a dentist appointment, then came home around 8. ate my breakfast, used the computer for around 30 minutes, then headed up to my room around 10. turned the tv on, browsed for a couple of minutes, then set it to the disney channel and went to sleep. woke up around 1.

this may be the first bit of unnecessary, leisurely sleep i have ever had in my life. the old me would have insisited on going on with the day since i had already woken up anyway. before, there was a policy of never wasting time. not anymore. and sleeping was never really a luxury for me, only as rest when my body was spent and as necessity during the night. it's a big thing for me. i'd like to congratulate myself.

i also spent the better part of the time i was awake listening to one of my favorite songs. i loved tapping my feet to the rhythm, mouthing the lyrics, getting intoxicated with the melody, relating with the message. i love my theme songs.

truly one of my better mornings.

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barely breathing
duncan sheik

i know what you're doing, see it all too clear
i only taste the saline when i kiss away your tears
you really had me going, wishing on a star
but the black holes that surround you are heavier by far

i believed in your confusion, you were so completely torn
it must have been that yesterday was the day that i was born
there's not much to examine, nothing left to hide
you really can't be serious if you have to ask me why
i say goodbye

'cause i am barely breathing and i can't find the air
don't know who i'm kidding, imagining you care
and i could stand here waiting, fool for another day
i don't suppose it's worth the prize, it's worth the price
the price that i would pay

and everyone keeps asking what's it all about
i used to be so certain, and i can't figure out
what is this attraction? i only feel the pain
nothing left to reason and only you to blame
will it ever change?

'cause i am barely breathing and i can't find the air
don't know who i'm kidding, imagining you care
and i could stand here waiting, fool for another day
i don't suppose it's worth the prize, it's worth the price
the price that i would pay

but i'm thinking it over anyway
i'm thinking it over anyway

come to find, i may never know
changing mind, is it friend or foe?
i rise above or sink below
with everytime you come and go
please don't come and go

'cause i am barely breathing and i can't find the air
don't know who i'm kidding, imagining you care
and i could stand here waiting, fool for another day
i don't suppose it's worth the prize, it's worth the price
the price that i would pay

but i'm thinking it over anyway
i'm thinking it over anyway

i know what you're doing, see it all too clear

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