it's been five days.

i don't know why i left my blog alone for the past five days. there are tons of stuff i wanted to put down in print, but i just couldn't get myself to do it. events, persons, opinions, contemplations, ideas, all of which flooded my brain, but not one of which could fuel me to start typing. not until i felt the intense need to blog last night. let me try to catch up. here goes.

saturday night was debut night. it was a heck of a time. i got my gift wrapped, a great big pillow if you care to know, and i must say i admired my giftwrapping capabilities to a vain extent that afternoon. i showered, changed into my semiformal (sorry, no 50's for me. couldn't find an outfit) clothes, joaqs arrived with the taxi, and we went to the place.

the night was wild. the time was magical. the memories are precious. food, friends, fun (and a little alcohol) is the perfect combination. except for the surprise video (which karla wasn't able to watch, weird...) where i covered my face every time i came on, and the 18 songs part where i clumsily couldn't grasp the exact moment where i could enter in the melody with my song. the band was playing the song alright, the lead guitarist was even mouthing out the lyrics to me, and all i could do was to stare and gape and tell them to start over. i knew i should have practiced. but it went well in the end, aside from the few laughs and jeers from the crowd. there was free-flowing san mig light, and a cute juice fountain. i discovered the joys of spiking my orange juice. it may have been the first time i drank any kind of alcohol in significant amounts, but i didn't get a hangover. that was fun. i'm only 16 anyway.

sunday came, and i was too lazy to type my entry. the day was spent like a sem break weekend, which i sorely miss. i went to manila on monday, because i was supposed to attend a practice for trp, but i ended up sleeping in the condo from 1 to 2:30, until danlen came. we went to the practice, which was just about over, and we all discussed our plans for that night. we had a bangus fiesta in the unit. all-you-can-eat bangus and taba ng talangka courtesy of andrew. again, free food, and the company of friends. no better times.

i was struck when tuesday finally arrived. since then, it seems like there's been nothing but a nonstop rampage of quizzes, assignments, and studying night after night. an assault which i never experienced during the first sem, and i am hating to the fullest right now. the only notable thing that happened is that instead of wilson, alikoy has become our 3rd condomate. wilson has to go home for the next 2 weeks, so alikoy has conveniently volunteered herself to us. we bought some supplies (we finally have a shower curtain!), cleaned up our bathroom tuesday night (which we are still obsessively-compulsively fretting about), and alikoy still hasn't returned to her home since then. i think the guards already think she lives in the building.

we went to glorietta yesterday, around 10 of us. i now know 2 things: i look like cogie domingo in the penshoppe posters, especially if i get the jackets he wears in them. and that i can convince myself about anything, regardless of how farfetched or impossible or unreal it is. my self-esteem, or rather, self-love and self-pride, is rising to new heights. i just want the jackets, actually.

there are still some thoughts i want to post, but maybe in a separate entry. there's still a math homework to do, soc sci research to copy, and zoology quiz to study for. classes start at 11:30 anyway.

maybe later.