call me crazy. call me self-absorbed and vain. call me fanatical, delusional, out of my mind. but i can feel it. i know something's there. something special.

and it isn't just about the glances and smiles. there's now the attention being lavished upon me (which never used to be there before). the constant banter and teasing around. laughtrip moments and inside jokes. a common understanding on things, and playful arguments on trivial ideas. head rubs (my head of course. thank you semikal!) casual lean-ins. farewell pats and waves. leaning an arm or a head against me. property exchange. random phrases of affection being thrown around haphazardly (an 'i love you' in the context of a joke is still an 'i love you'). now tell me i'm not just thinking this up.

if there's anything i've learned in comm 3, it's that actions *do* speak louder than words. prof adeva couldn't be more right than now. it's not like what has transpired over the weeks of classes is unique, most (or all) of these i get from my friends on a daily basis. but like i said, there's just something extra here. if not the sudden increase of anything happening at all between us at all, it's gotta be the equal interest i might have on the whole scenario.

i'm not sure if these signals are being sent deliberately, with the same intentions as i perceive them to have, nor am i sure if there's awareness that i'm actually picking up these signals. so how can i possibly send the message "i get the signals, i'm right here." back? reciprocate, of course. so there it went, big grins, teasing and joking right back, getting on with conversations, possibly leaning into the lean-ins, spending as much time as possible together. there's nothing wrong with a little innocent *flirting*, specially if it's going on both ways. like i said, equal interest.

i can just hope that the interest is really there, and where this whole thing will lead us, only time will tell.